Hitting A New Low

So happy Friday to all. Mine has not started off so good. Jas just called me and he got layed off today. We had a bad feeling it was coming. They said it might only be for a week or two, but then again it might be permanent. 2009 has been rather shitty for us. I shouldn't complain though...things could be so much worse. It is just so hard. I hate this contant feeling of worry and fear. Not knowing if we will be able to pay bills and such. I am sure we will have to pull Lauren from daycare again if he is not back in a few weeks. The worst part is the insurance will run out at the end of the month. Thankfully, I was able to get myself a dentist appt and move Lauren's 3 yr checkup all into this month so insurance will help cover it.

Today marks 7 months since my accident. I am suppose to hear from the insurance agent today about working out a settlement. I am so thankful for my life and not being paralyzed or anything, but I truly hope I am offered something for the pain and suffering. It is still hard for me to drive and be around semis. I don't think that will ever change. I am always in fear of someone hitting me while I am driving, especially when Lauren is with me. Guess we will see what happens.

I am sad now because we may not be able to extend Lauren's gymnastics classes or allow her to do many other fun experiences. Granted, we will do our best to come up with inexpensive ideas to keep her entertained and of course, devote time and love, which is most important anyway.

So I am praying that this damn economy turns around soon. So many people are suffering. Our family business if just barely staying afloat too and I worry about us not surviving, then what? I pray that Lauren never had to go through this kind of worry in her lifetime. I pray that we all pull through sooner than later and become stronger as a nation.